Just a Fool

You make me feel foolish
Words of truth behind my back
Lies spoken to my face
My heart is racing and my stomach churns
So many times I've asked you
So many times you've misled me

You make me feel foolish
Loving with reckless abandon
Lusting with cloudy eyes
My insides drop out and my ears ring
So many times like this
So many times promised it would stop

You make me feel foolish
Trusting your reassurance
Turning around with a knife in my back
My mind is cracking and my judgement is blank
So many times I've wilted
So many times I've been reborn

How many times do I sit and listen?
How many times do I listen to your lies?
How many more days must I sit with your sickness?
How many more days do I hold on?