Holy Rollovers & This Man's Message

You heard my agony as you watched my falling tears
You sat silent, turned blindly and watched me ravaged by fear

I poured out my soul with my light growing dim
Instead of compassion, you said it was sin

The darkness wanted to conquer, it wanted totality
You watched it settle, to prepare it's looming principality

Alone, alone, alone, I felt so alone
You couldn't muster courage, just a damn drone

Your words only quoted what was in This Man's heart
Him and His words, tearing a woman's value apart

Using protection as a foot and delicacy as a stone
A woman is a woman, but only when she stays home

Forgetting the chapter that said what women are worth
A Proverbial slip that robbed me of feminine mirth

This Man and His message forever tarnished me
This Man and His message cut my veins and made me bleed

He said we were all together but He didn't mean it so
As soon as I aired a question, His eyes said "Go"

I sat weekly and I watched Him on His mount
He climbed a hill to Mars and now He is keeping count

I floundered and I flustered, weak my arms grew
You wouldn't take my hand unless He directed you

Instead it was easier to be silent and turn away
My whole life was affected but it only ruined your day

Don't ask me to be honest if you can't understand my heart
Don't pretend to listen and then tear my words apart

I regret that you hurt me, I regret we ever knew
I regret This Man's Message, I am glad I withdrew

His Message did not match The One that I was told
His Message was for men and women had to be sold

He spoke against most everything that made me who I am
He negated The One Who Made me, who filled me with a plan

I almost lost my purpose, I began to lose my way
Now His Message means nothing, not even on a dark day

His Message no longer dominates, no longer darkens me
I see The One's plan and that's what set me free

Wearing Me Down

I can't save you, I can't hold your hand
Check yourself and stand
Don't exhaust my emotions, don't exhaust my mind
Check yourself and get out of line
Life won't come to you, problems don't dissolve
I can't be your every answer, your problems aren't mine to solve
You can't need me every hour of the day, you are wearing my thread thin
I can't be your every answer, your answers lie within

Lonely Man

I saw you walk by him
I saw you spit in his eye
I heard him cry out for help
And I watched you let him die
His eyes went cold and grey
His life passing on
All he wanted was a meal
And you did him such wrong

Steelehand

There is something about you that I fear
Will you suck me in?
Will you latch to drag me down?
I feel you're contagious
Like a widespread disease
Your eyes feel toxic
My skin turns green
With your claws in, gasping
No air, no air
Will you deflate my lungs?
Injure my life
Injure my will
I want to run from you
How can they linger?
Don't they feel your iron?
They have become immune

There is something about you that made me run
But I ran like hell
I've been steady running
Toward your twisted destination
Your suffocation made me want
When you stifled, I grew strong
Those claws, permanence desired
I tore them out and you made me run
But I ran like hell and won't look back
I sucked out your poison
Many years your hand was heavy
So many years you made me cry
But I ran like hell
And I ran like hell
Your steele is over
And all I see is gold

Your Beautiful Soul 3-10-11

A light and a life you were to our hearts, we wept when we were torn apart
Your beautiful soul has traveled on to a place of His art
Yet I still sit and hope to catch your powdery scent and weep not

En recuerdos I think of you
En recuerdos I cry
En recuerdos I imagine your soft hands
En recuerdos I want you alive

Your vessel was not large enough to contain your loving grace
It would not leave your side, so it glowed, resting on your face
An aura love, acceptance and faith, it calmed our hearts in life's rough race

En recuerdos I think of you
En recuerdos I cry
En recuerdos I imagine your soft hands
En recuerdos I want you alive

We mourn for our Matriarch, we mourn for our great loss

Crude Hope

I lost tears for you tonight, at the grotesquely quick approaching loss
I remember your face, I remember the life, I remember that light
Dangerously charming, alarmingly crude
You were such an ass sometimes, but then you would crack a joke
My lips could not hold back a boorish smile
There was so much I hoped for you, now hope is all I have left
I can't catch sight of you for it would be destruction
I sit in solitude and I remember
I will remember your face, I will remember the life, I will remember that light
I will hope to see you again, to see you better than before
To crack a crude joke and lose ourselves in laughter

Two in One

Behind Closed Doors - 1-25-11

I would like to know what's behind closed doors
I want to know, who is pulling the strings?
When to laugh
When to dance
When to witness strange things

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Untitled - 1-26-11

Another year, another jade stone
Put it in the pile with the others
Another dream dashed, another fear hatched